Poem - Thoughts Alone

Thought Alone

Can moments exist;

Upon a thought alone?

For that glimpse of fiction.

Is it just me my own?

I stepped into a panorama.

It cascaded my senses.

Time echoes slowly by.

My day enclosed in fences.

Cut off and drawn in lines.

I am bound by laws.

Rules I make to fury.

I whimper at my own flaws.

They scream and shout.

Glaring, an obvious mess.

I am my own reflection.

To my own naiveness. 

But moments;

They linger like a taste.

With a flash, they run.

And I give my chase.

So I ask.

Once again.

In my curious crisis.

My question a bane.

Can moments exist;

Upon a thought alone?

Or does reality, 

Have to be sown?

The clocks stop.

My eyes dim to close.

Memories shimmer.

My voice awaiting prose.

You stand.

Opposite me.

Beyond the mirror.

My memory be.

For you are,

Now a memory.

More certain than ever. 

I am cold and empty.

Like smoke to a net.

You drift away.

My chance lost.

None existent this day. 

I do not claim love.

Nor confessions of.

But heartbreak asunder.

For my mourning love.

We live linear.

Moving to an end,

State of present. 

Our past we defend.

In our minds.

We fight to retain.

Our silver memories.

Our moments in pain.

And you are gone.

From me.

And I regret my time.

For I lost only to me.

Fear.

I fear risk.

In the unknown.

It attacks brisk.

You are perfect.

Molded to beauty.

In my own eyes.

I stutter at my duty.

To remember such.

An honor.

To have known such.

An honor. 

My dear,

Let me not forget.

Let me remember. 

In the rain wet.

For I replay.

My life with you.

Those fleeting moments.

And I veer into a view. 

Fiction takes hold.

What if.

What if I loved you.

I plummet from that cliff. 

What if you, me. 

What if dreams,

Became reality.

Written in their own reams. 

What if?

I ask as if for an answer.

What if?

What now?

What do I do?

My thoughts of you.

My dreams.

Fiction.

I regret. 

I anger.

I despair.

I mourn.

I live.

I move on.

You were a glimpse.

At perfection gone. 

A love lost.

Never had.

A dream.

A memory.

And so.

I ask:

Can moments exist;

Upon a thought alone?

Poetry the True Underlying Condition of my Life

I have studied Photography seriously for just over a decade. I have used almost every type of camera imaginable from the latest of digitals offering, to cameras made at the turn of the twentieth century and in between. I have worked as a videographer and photographer. I have studied my Masters in photography and plan to pursue a PhD in photography. I work as a camera salesman as my day job.  As I approach my twenty-fifth birthday I still and always will have much to learn about the craft that has taken over my life. 

I have written poetry since I was fourteen. I started as a way to understand William Shakespeare who I was playing in a play at high school. I started simple and evolved as I went. I damned the rule and I damned grammar. I just wrote I had found a way to vent my emotions as I felt them into a physical representation to the exact word, all in the name of teenage angst. I have won one local competition, and written hundreds of poems, most of which I have lost.

At the end of my Masters, I sought to combine the Japanese poetry known as Haiku and photography. Going forward I wish to sink my teeth into Poetry and Photography with more abandon. Though I have written for over a decade I never really studied poetry, past what was handed me in school. So as I study Haiku by chance I picked up a collection of Poems by Allen Ginsberg. I was inspired. The rawness of the words, the emotions and visions created spoke of what a younger me had sought to accomplish in the written form. I was renewed, I needed to learn more about this genre of poetry.

And though, I will never ever to profess to be a Master of the written word. Just as I will never ever profess to be a Master of the visual image. I wish to, going forwards use this blog as a way to talk about the two things that I have found the most passion for. I will be publishing poems, images. Images of poems, poems of images and so on and so on. I will leave you with a Haiku I wrote:

Just me and the cat,

It sleeps at my feet in bed

I await my dreams

Thanks For Reading,

Reece.

Me, Myself and I: A Rundown of my Equipment now and Future....

Ok so first of my equipment as a writer is generally:

Microsoft Word: For Novel, Poetry, Short Stories and any Character Profiles and Treatments for any Scripts I happen to be writing.

Celtx: For script writing though I am slowly shifting over to Adobe's Story I currently still use this as a script writing tool due to most my friends using the same program enabling scripts to be sent to each other and Doctored much easier.

Adobe Story: With my purchase of Adobe CC I had myself a look at Story. I am still learning all the programs features but for the moment I am happy enough with it to state it is now my main script writing program. A program I am currently writing a script called: 'Whisky.'

I either write upon my custom built PC or my now old Asus Eee PC netbook. The little thing which I expected to be a short investment until I could buy myself a descent laptop has exceeded my expectations and kept me quite happy and content. I am currently looking for a new portable machine to write on currently my eye is being drawn to the 13'' Macbook Air by Apple. Hopefully I would like to get it whilst it's student discount still applies to myself but we shall have to wait and see.

For Photography/Filming I use:

Canon 600D: Originally bought for purely filming. The photography aspect of the camera itself didn't really impact me until recently when I became slightly enamored with Black and White photography. I currently own three lens' for the camera these are as follows: 18-55mm & 50-250mm Kit lens. Along with the 50mm Prime 1.8f also known as the 'Nifty Fifty'. They serve their purpose well and give me a good range to play around with. Though some L lens would prove better but we shall come to that.

I also recently (for my 20th) acquired the Pentax Q and its 5-15mm lens. This camera is a camera purely for fun. It's tiny form factor and good photo quality for what it is and it's price which I got for £150.00 is fantastic to play around with. I put it in a tiny camera bag and carry it around with me without any hassle allowing me to take a picture on the go without a cumbersome DSLR backpack full of lens.  

Now earlier I mentioned about L-Lens. Though brilliant kit I myself am not really interested in them. Because I see my future in photography as in my next camera in the mirror-less sector. Mainly the Micro-Four-Thirds area of Mirror-Less. This is mainly due to pricing, size, portability and quality. The camera I would love to own for photography is the Olympus OMD E-M1 now I'm not going to review it as I have no hands on experience but seriously 'E-M1' into YouTube and will see many brilliant reviews about the camera.

I also mentioned earlier that I own Adobe CC. Which I use for post on short/student films and or photography. And of course my script writing for Story. Now I have only been using Adobe software for a short amount of time having been converted from Sony Vegas Pro within the last year or so curtsy of my friend Dan.

My perfect future kit is: The Olympus OMD E-M1 and a few nice MFT lens. And a dedicated camera for filming preferably in RAW as RAW is just cool.  But my next main buy will have to be a portable yet decently powerful laptop for Writing and Lightroom usage.

Now that's a bit of a run down on my equipment and equipment aspirations (we all have them) and just a view upon myself and so forth. I shall be posting an overview of the Nifty Fifty Canon Lens on Weds and every Friday or Saturday will be a small ramble such as today's. At the end I shall put a quote I found and enjoyed ranging from any topic.

Hope You Enjoyed,

And I leave you with this: 'When you fall for someone's personality, everything about them becomes beautiful.'